Hello and welcome to my little corner of the internet! I’m so glad to have you here ☀️
So, a little bit about me and why I’ve decided to start a mental health blog.
Borderline Personality Disorder
I like to call my past self ‘The Queen of Self-Destructive Behaviour’ because before my BPD diagnosis I was problematic AF.
I adopted every unhealthy coping mechanism imaginable in my attempt to subdue the tempestuous, all-consuming monster that is borderline personality disorder. Substance abuse, impulsive behaviour, self-harm – you name it, I tried it.
I thought I would be a slave to the intense emotions and irrational fears forever. I thought I was destined to flitter despairingly between identities, doomed to endure toxic relationship after toxic relationship. But after a shit-ton of therapy, some brutal self-awareness and a whole lot of internalising to within an inch of my life, I’ve actually managed to get a lot better.
And so can you, even if you don’t feel it’s possible 🌈
I was diagnosed with depression at thirteen years old, right in the middle of my MCR-inspired-emo moment. Turns out it wasn’t just a phase after all Mom, because thirteen years later I’m still in therapy.
Although depression still lurks in the background of my everyday life, I’m no longer prone to debilitating bouts of bed-ridden melancholy. There are lots of ups and downs in my journey to recovery, and I promise to share both the good and the bad – and throw in all of my mediocre advice too!
As if I didn’t have enough to deal with already, depression’s partner in crime came waltzing into my life during my first year of university. The constant, niggling nausea blossomed into full blown social anxiety in the space of a month, complete with an omnious sense of impending doom.
Oh how my BPD thrived!
I’ve come a long way in my recovery journey with anxiety, but of course I still have a long way to go. I have lots of self-care and management tips that help me calm down my anxiety even on the worst days – and I’m looking forward to sharing them all with you!
Beyond The Blues
My driving force behind this blog is to raise awareness and reduce the stigma surrounding mental health. After the lows I’ve been to, I want to share my recovery journey in the hope that it can instill some faith in those of you who feel like giving up.
This is a blog of positivity, hope and healing ☀️ but I also love a good rant and am impartial to the occasional mental breakdown 🤪
I hope you’ll join me on my journey to mental wellness, sprinkling every day with a bit of sassiness and sarcasm as we brave it through the storm.