A living with borderline personality disorder blog, sharing the intense highs and crushing lows of BPD

  • BPD

    BPD and Long-Distance Relationships – Can They Work?

    BPD and long-distance relationships can be a very damaging mix. Why do I say this? Well, before my diagnosis, circumstances found me and my boyfriend of 2 years in a long-distance relationship (we’re talking opposite sides of the world long distance). I’d be lying if I said the relationship wasn’t already on the rocks, but it lasted less than two months before ending in disaster. “But all of your relationships have ended in disaster,” I hear you accuse. Touché. And yet, those two months of being in a long-distance relationship exasperated my BPD to the point where I was very, very ill. The breakdown of this relationship was actually the…

  • Anxiety,  BPD,  Depression

    My Guide To Managing Multiple Mental Illnesses

    I’ve been managing multiple mental health illnesses ever since I was a teenager. My borderline personality disorder has been there ever since I can remember, lurking in the shadows and silently poisoning every aspect of my life. My depression was the first to be diagnosed though, obtrusive waves of sadness that turned into debilitating, suicidal despair. The anxiety came later, disguised as introversion until I tried to cure it with recreational drugs. Every single day, depression, anxiety and BPD try their best to inconvenience me into a mental breakdown. Managing multiple mental illnesses is hard. Like, really hard. For the first 10+ years of my mental health journey, I was…

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    Embracing The Positive Things About BPD

    I’m not going to lie, my last post about how much I hate BPD felt like a bit of a character assassination. To cheer myself up, I decided to write a post about some of the positive things about BPD. Yeah, OK. So I had to dig a little deep. But I got there in the end. BPD is one of the most misunderstood mental health disorders today, and there are a lot of negative stereotypes surrounding it. ‘Crazy,’ ‘abusive’ and ‘manipulative’ are amongst some of the most common and hurtful stereotypes identified by Sonny Jane over on The Mighty. BPD is even portrayed negatively in the media (I mean,…

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    Confessions of a Borderline Personality; The Worst Things About Living With BPD

    Living with borderline personality disorder (BPD) is kind of like being stuck in a wild, treacherous ocean. Our emotions are like violent waves always threatening to engulf us and our fears are sinister, circling sharks. The only salvation we have is a raft that keeps sailing away from us even though we’re doing everything we can to keep it in our grasp. Also, we can’t swim, so we’re kinda drowning. Constantly. Living with BPD every day is so mentally draining that sometimes I just need to vent about how much I hate it. I experience new struggles and setbacks all the time so there’s always something new for me to…

  • Borderline personality disorder breakup

    Going Through A Break-Up When You Have Borderline Personality Disorder

    Breakups suck. Breakups when you have borderline personality disorder doubly suck. I was lucky enough to find this out a few months ago when one of my very worst BPD fears came true and I got dumped. No, not dumped. Abandoned. At least that’s what the BPD told me. In the past, I never talked about my borderline personality disorder with friends or family because 1. they didn’t care, 2. they didn’t get it and 3. I didn’t care or get it either. In fact, I pretty much ignored it for a long time because it just didn’t make sense to me. That was until I couldn’t ignore it anymore.…

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